The Real Reason You Can't Stop Procrastinating
How many times have you told yourself that you'll start working towards a dream or a passion tomorrow yet you never do? How many times have you felt like absolute crap after you let yourself down, once again? And, if we're being really real, how many times have you cried yourself to sleep because you can't seem to find the chuztpah to just start making your dreams happen already?!
I don't know about you but I don't have enough fingers to count on.
Time and time (and time) again I've found myself dreaming wild, crazy dreams yet never doing anything about them. It's not because I didn't believe in them, or because I didn't have a vision, or even a game plan, it's because I was afraid out of my mind and I let fear win.
Fear hates action. Fear despises the ability to overcome and get to work. Instead, fear likes to cozy up with resistance and snuggle with procrastination.
Fear will turn you into a Professional Dream Procrastinator (but let's call it PDP, for the sake of space and because I've always wanted to create my own acronym).
A PDP is someone who is talented, intelligent, and driven yet gets stuck in their own way. A PDP is someone who is creative beyond belief yet feels like their creativity is not good enough to be seen by others. And, a PDP is someone who feels insurmountable tinges of jealousy, low self-esteem, and sadness because they aren't fulfilling their dreams and compare themselves to others who are.
I've realized recently that I've always been a PDP, 25 years to be exact. How did I realize this? Because for two years now, I've done everything to improve my life and do a total 180. I've worked on myself, my relationships with others, my blog, you name it. However, even though I am insanely more happy than I have ever been in my entire life I still feel a gnawing void in my mind + body + soul that I can't seem to shake off.
Why do I still feel like a huge part of me is missing?
It's because after all of the attention I gave to self-improvement, I kept pushing away the one thing that I want more than anything else: my dreams, my passions, and my visions to come to fruition.
It was so easy to do, too. Every day I would find an excuse to not work as hard as I knew I could. Or, I would talk myself out of doing anything about them because the fear of "am I good enough" was too paralyzing.
It's sad and scary to know that it's so much easier to push away your dreams, one day at a time, than it is to just sit down and get to work.
Once again, I don't know about you but I'm ready to hang up my reigning title of Professional Dream Procrastinator. I think I rather be Happy, Fearless, and Accomplished instead (HFA kind of has a ring to it).
No more fear. No more snuggling up with procrastination. No more stopping ourselves. No more feeling like crap. No more ignoring our dreams. No more! It's time to just start already and get out of our own way. Our dreams are worth more than silly fears that are trying to hold us back.
I hope you'll join me in this and do something today, no matter how small or big, that will be your first step to making your dreams happen!